.Wednesday, March 08, 2006 ' 12:54 PM Y
Uncertain feelings went round my head, trying to find an ans. But to no avail.
I'm not sure wad had happen.
But i still dun intend to find the ans yet.
All i know currently, was being content wif wad u haf.
Read some of my frens blog.
Realising tat frens do come and go. They never stay.
How many of the people will keep in contact wif their old frens when they've met new ones? Hardly. Well, there might be reasons - studies, different schs, work. But how many ppl will make time for each other to come together for a gathering? Annually? During sch's vacations?
Most people say tat sec sch's frenship do last. But i doubt so. It depends on individual. So what if u haf know ur fren for more than 4 or 5 yrs? Do they keep in contact wif u often? Nah.
My life now revolves only a few things.. my boyfren who will always stand by me no matter wad. And of cuz not forgetting my parents. So wad bout frens? Nah.. my frens come and go. No true nor best frens. Den wad bout close frens? Its still the same..
Sometimes i wonder, izzit because of the presence of my bf tat led to frens moving further away from me? I'm not sure cuz no one tell me wad they think about my bf coming along. Feeling uncomfortable or seeing him as an outcast?
I just dun understand. I dun find any problems of my bf going out wif my frens as he clicks well wif them.
So wher does the problem lies? Can anyone tell me?My attitude? My character? Or simply because i'm not suitable for the grp they hang out wif.
Thers certain things i wanna pin-point but im afraid of offending someone. I just find it unfair and ridiculous. I wanna say it but i dunno how i shud put the words. Mayb i'll just cut the story short..
"Cant u play during weekends?? Why must it be weekdays?? U are enjoying the hell out of ur life.. so wad bout me? It not wrong to enjoy but u lie. Lying to me.
U said u gonna spend ur precious time doing certain things tat are worthwhile. But u are not. Complaining to me about how little time u haf for ur hobby in the past.
But now? U are given more than enough time.. Thinking tat u will spend most of ur time on ur hobby. But u are not! U are enjoying!
U can say tat im jealous.. but in fact, im upset, being an outcast.
But who will know?Provided u read my blog."
But anyway, very lil ppl wud bother to read my blog. Who cares anyway. I'm just an outcast. A super glue who sticks to her bf all the time.
Who will stay true to me? Only my bf and my parents.
HER LOVES