.Saturday, October 29, 2005 ' 7:27 AM Y
yest was phy pract. dun tink it went very well.. oh well, all i haf to do now is buck up on my theory. =)
yest was our 5 months anni. we went out for dinner together. after tat we went for a walk. 5 months.. problems we faced together.. im always the one who is insensitive, always throw tantrum. but u will always be there to shower me wif love, no matter wad. i do get jealous.. cuz sometime i get alil insecure. nt tat he din gave me a sense of secure.. but mayb he wasnt sensitive enuff. went thru alot together.. quarrels.. but hope all this are worth it. thanks for all the sweet memories u haf given me. =)
we were toking abt a topic yest. he wanted me to patch back wif her for he guilty tat it was his appearance tat led to such an ending. izzit so? i dun tink so.. it had come to such an ending is cuz of me. i dun wanna mention tis thing again.. but once he mention it, i cant get tis thing of my mind. and i cant study when alot of things is going thru in my mind.
it had come to such an ending cuz of misunderstandings.. guess alot is on my part and neither of us want to clarify anything. as a gd fren of hers.. i wasnt there when she was sick, i wasnt there for her when she needed moral support from frens. as such, i fail my duty as a gd fren. ppl may say.. its a pity tat such a gd frendship had come to such an ending. its true though.
ever since she came back.. we dun tok much. and its very obvious tat we are drifting apart. neither of us is doing anything. went up to her for a small chat but all she gave was a plain reply. mayb she felt left out at 1st. sometimes i dunno wad she was thinking cuz she kept thiings to herself. guess she had changed alot since after tat incident.
ppl may say.. u may haf alot of frens in ur life.. but there will only be 1 true fren who will stay wif u for ur whole life. i may haf lost a true fren. but then, i still can depend on myself. be independent.
patch or nt to? i haf tis guilt in me since tat incident. and i somehow haf this kinda weird feeling when im wif her. she's like no longer the person i know before. i may show tat i dun care for her.. but i still do care for her, in my heart. but anyway.. im sort of decided not to.
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