.Friday, September 09, 2005 ' 3:11 AM Y
today is my chem prelim prac. i can say.. it totally sux. quite tough and my titration range was far too off. my QA was quite ok. hope so. =x
been a very bad mood these few days.. dunno y oso. can someone tell me y? these few days ive been sort of quarelling wif joe over minor things.. and it's started by me. dots. like now.. im feeling moody. well.. cuz i wanted him to come find me.. but he dun wanna go out too far.. and oso cuz tat his leg pain. yest he say he was coming over.. but due to some situation. he wasnt able to make it. so the whole day.. i was like hoping and hoping.. and in the end.. ended wif a quarrel. started by me again.
like yest.. i was hoping. and yest nite he asked me whether i wanna him to come over today. of cuz i wud much like him to come over. even to see him juz for awhile.. i juz feel like scolding someone now.. vent all my anger.
yest cannot come out.. how come today can? he yest in critical condition.. but not today? weird. i dun wanna mention all these to him.. cuz we'll ended up in a quarrel. started by me. so i rather dun tok to him abt it.
i juz feel like crying.. cry my hearts out. well.. i did yest. but think tats still not enuff for me. i dunno wads got into me. frends.. bf.. studies.. i no longer haf a best fren. and mayb its wad i deserve in return. so wad if i dun haf a best fren.. i believe there will still be frens ard me who are willing to be my listening ears.. and now.. im trying to communicate wif diff grps of ppl in my class. at least i found a few i can tok to abt my personal matters.. eg. yong, hong, farz. im juz trying to be optimistic here. self-consoling..
i dun tink i make a gd fren.. a gd gf too.. so wad am i gd at? mayb nth at all.. my studies? i juz need someone to motivate me.. but who? haiis..
needa apologize to yong.. cuz tat time quarrel wif him. den i dun wanna tok to him.. so i vent my anger on yong.. sorry wor.. =( she got a shocked when i kept scolding.. vulgarities alil here and there.. =x
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